doisconvolution

I thought this was a funny thing…

Richard Gere has a warrant for kissing a Bollywood personality on the cheek in India… click link for related video…

there should be a happy medium regarding public displays of affection…EVEN IN OLD-FASHIONED CULTURES.

of course North America is outraged by the violent response of some people in India (Some people burnt effigies of Richard Gere, for cripes sake!). of course they would see it as backward. with the mainstream "sexing" up of celebrities - and the rampant of proliferation of porn which desensitized everyone here in North America - a kiss on the cheek is tantamount to nothing. but i cringe to the fact that some people think they can do JUST ABOUT ANYTHING without considering other people’s norms and set of values (sorry Richard, i love you but you just emulated the 2 biggest peeves i have for some, if not most, of Westerners: IGNORANCE AND ARROGANCE).

of course SOME of the people in India are ultra-conservative. although i find this ironic bearing in mind that the BIBLE OF SEX originated from this culture. i even have Indian friends here in North America who were born here in North America who are afraid that they be seen hanging out with a boy holding hands by any of the members of their community and are terrified of the consequences (i have heard of stories of murder but im still thinking this is absolutely insane coz nothing has been reported in the media so far).

AND YET, i have to say that the rationale behind the outrage is decent, and protective. it comes from the desire to protect the value of the WOMAN - which most women in North America are striving for. We cringe at the fact that some men are pigs and don’t treat women right. i guess the men (and women) in India value their modesty VERY MUCH.

MY BOTTOMLINES ARE:
1) Some people just have to know how to relax and redefine their definition of modesty.
2) Some people just have to be and need to be aware of local culture first before considering to do something. IGNORANCE OF THE LAW (in this case, NORMS) EXCUSES NO ONE…

its all over the media, internet posts, blogs, wakekek…

we can theorize why these things happen, and think about a lot of things  -that the world is definitely coming to an end, or at least has reached a new low. i’m sick of it. and numb. i know it all happenned just yesterday but i dont wanna hear all about it anymore.

blame society? blame the NRA? blame america’s forefathers for drafting up that constitution? blame authorities for being too complacent? blame God for doing this to good people? blame his folks for sending him to America? WHO DO WE BLAME? OR DO WE BLAME AT ALL? OR SHOULD WE JUST KEEP SILENT ABOUT IT AND MOURN THOSE WHO DIED?

its a sad sad world… AND YET there are lessons to be learned… and i will go about it by asking you these questions:

have you stopped to gape (and mock) or simply not care enough for that geeky and weird individual in school, work, or neighborhood?

do you think you’re so cool that you alienate those who are uncool around you? and think that they’re beneath you?

or do you think you’re too much of a mother teresa to announce to the world that you care enough to create a "positive" space to talk to the "poor little souls in school" - which reinforces the stereotype and stigma even more?

have you smiled at a stranger lately? someone who may have needed it to turn his/her life around?

and this is going to be the last things i’m going to say about what has happenned in Virginia Tech…

may the souls of those who died rest in peace…

shit shit shit

fuck fuck FUCK!

i was such having a great day because i had a short day at work, my patients made me feel important and valued and validated (for being a very good nurse) and then i got this phonecall…

Charge nurse: D, what did Dr. F said about Mrs T’s orders??
Me: to D/C the insulin drip but give Humalog 8 units per meal and 20 units of Humulin R by bedtime…
Charge nurse: did he say this to you???
Me: no, i did not talk to him, i transcribed it off the orders…
Charge nurse: are you sure its humulin R?
Me: yes, it looked like an R…but i did see the pen Mrs T. gave me and it was an N so i wondered why it was an R that he ordered.
charge Nurse: why did you not question it???
Me: um…i got busy helping out so and so and it slipped my mind……um….(this time feeling sheepish, cornered, and debating whether at this point i should just say sorry which can prove 2 things: that im incompetent or i’m really sorry for the honest but life-threatening mistake, or that i insist that i saw R written instead of N)…

shit shit shit….

it freaked me out!!! what if she got that huge-a-hunkaaaa dose and bottomed out? what if the following nurse was stupid enough to not question it too??? what if? what if? what if???????? WOULD THAT THEN BE THE END OF ME??? that conversation i had with my charge nurse was like 5 hours ago and it still is freaking me out! i SWEEEEEEEEAAAAAAARRRRRRRR i’m not incompetent and i definitely care enough for my patients to let them DIE like that…. (i was lucky my patients blood sugar was over 20 sooner so they had to review the orders for any sliding scale so they caught it before it happenned……….)

BUT FUCK! i cannot be complacent like that anymore. even though it means my colleagues hating me for not helping them because i read and re-read my orders 50 million times over!!!